`a love suicide'

Say

Where is my shame,

When I call your name?

So, please don’t set me free

I’m as heavy as can be

I will do you harm

I will break my arm

I am a victim of your charms

I want to be dead

When I’m in bed

I can be so mean

You can beat me

I would like to shame you

I would like to blame you

Just because of my love to you

And

Love itself is just as innocent as roses in May

I know nothing can drive it away

Though

Love itself is just as brief as a candle in the wind

But it’s greedy just like sin

Alone but sane

I am a love suicide

‘Cause

Love itself is just as brief as a candle in the wind

It is pure white just like sin

Alone but sane

I am a love suicide

‘Cause

Love itself is just as innocent as roses in May

It is pure white just like sin

ye...kenapa????aku masih disini dengan jiwa semakin kosong...sangat kosong...kering...aku tak terdaya hendak menanggung derita. Oh?apakah ini penghujung? atau permainan baru bermula? Aku lemah, tak terdaya...

Don’t leave me in all this pain
Don’t leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away

beginikah akhirnya hidupku? aku mencari ketenangan...maafkan aku...aku perlu berbuat begini...kerana aku tidak mahu berbuat sebegitu padamu lagi. Aku tahu aku mengecewakan kau hari tu...tapi apakan daya, aku juga semakin keliru dengan diri aku...seolah2 aku tidak mengenali diriku lagi...maafkan diri yang hina...lemah ini...aku mencuba memperbetulkan diri ini semula...insyaAllah...bykkan doa, semoga ira kembali sebagai ira yang sayang kenal...

~a love suicide~

12:34pm

5 april 2010